074. Just Try
It’s been a lot easier to get behind the keyboard since setting a word goal.
It has been quite the long journey to get to this point. In this moment, it doesn’t feel so long. As much as it daily, I remember the struggles and the dragging of moments to moments, today feels like it came quite quickly.
To me, this feels like what I imagined the first few days of this 90-day journey would like. Trying so hard to meet a word count and hoping something good happened at the end of it. Those first few days, the first half, they felt explorative and expansive.
For me, this experience truly has been a journey. If you were to tell someone who knew me 2 years ago that this is something I do daily, I do not think they would be as easily believing of that idea as someone would be now. For a moment there I wanted to say someone who knew me last year, but, the more time progresses, the more I exist as this person.
I guess there are somethings that we are always trying to believe about ourselves that other people will believe before we do.
I really hoped I could do it, and every day, I really want to be here. Now, I am closer to the end than I am to the start and, I love this part of my day. I love the opportunity to exist in this space. Where I am a part of the ether. Broadcasting my thoughts out into the wild for whomever to find. I am attempting to learn how to be the kind of person I aspire to be.
When I used to write these, I would spend the day trying to find a topic. Something I had thought about for long enough for me to be able to try and string together an argument that looked long enough as though to express effort was put into the articulation. Most of my struggle then was finding enough avenues to explain the thought to make it feel well round. However, I felt as though most of those thoughts could have been understood in the first few sentences, but in the spirit of ‘writing’, more words were need.
To some people, those who I have met in recent times, perhaps even majority of the readers of this platform, I am exactly who I say I am. A person showing up every day, and trying to be the best version of themselves they are capable of being at any given moment.
I aspire to be the kind of person who enjoys to do hard things. A person who looks forward to seeing the genius that can be inspired from taking on a challenge or trying to learn something new.
I might have been nervous about allowing myself to exist publicly, allow the world to read my thoughts, but since I allowed myself to write the thoughts I was scared too share, I find that I refer people directly to my words when I wish to express a sentiment.
So, I guess once again I am here to tell you, one of the most freeing things you will ever to in your life is try. So, why not do it, just try.
Dear reader, that me for today. Of course you know I have tried my best and put my number one effort into today, so I’m here hoping you have too. Just a day left, let’s make it a beautiful one, and be sure to come back here to see what can be found in 500 words.
