002. Execution
Part of me that is deeply frustrated with myself because I decided to publicly commit to this undertaking knowing I am new to all this.
I have spent my whole day obsessing over what I would write today. Everything I watched and listened to; I paid close attention wondering if it would be my source of inspiration. As I sit here and try my best to push thoughts out of my mind, I am wondering where all the inspiration went.
Today feels somewhat tough. I imagine the next 88 days will carry a similar pressure but, today feels important.
In September of 2025, I attempted and completed my first ever 30-day challenge. It was a yoga challenge and all it required of me was to show up to the matt consistently. I wasn't able to do all 30 days back-to-back but, that was never the point of the challenge. Around day 3 or 4, the instructor advised that if you miss a day, it does not define the course of the challenge, be kind to yourself and allow yourself to carry on where you left off the following day.
The reality of life is that…it happens. No matter how meticulous a plan can be and your intention to follow through, life finds a way to spice things up. Thankfully, today is not one of those days. Honestly, I had a very beautiful day charged with the excitement of sitting in this moment - doing the thing. Now as I sit in this moment, I honestly can't help but laugh because I feel like a prisoner of my own intention.
I know that this thought is not yet complete but, filling it in, seems beyond an undertaking. I am not sure if this is what was meant when it was said that 'it is better to write about writer's block than to not write at all'.
Before I go any further, I would like to thank you for coming back to this series. If this is your first time here, welcome. It is only day 2 so, I cannot even apologise for the tone as I am still discovering it. However, I am not sorry. At a time when people pulling away from reading, your choosing to spend time reading my writing only warrants gratitude. So, thank you for choosing to read my work.
And, back into it…
As it stands, my announcement post on LinkedIn currently has 206 impressions, 10 reactions and 5 reposts. On the other hand, the article the post was announcing has 7 page views averaging a view time of 11 seconds. This perhaps should put me at ease, and I want it to but, this time around, it feels as though showing up to the matt will not be enough.
By starting this challenge, only a day after the idea came to me, I have reduced the time between ideation and execution. Living in the execution, I find myself feeling a little baffled, wondering how I will possibly spend the next 88 days. What substance will shape these days? I suppose what I do not know now, I will discover in time.
What frustrates me is that I know when put head down to rest, my mind will fill of thoughts of what today's entry could have been. Alas, I will not stress myself over sleep I am yet to lose, there is still tomorrow. In this moment, I know I have tried, I know I have done my best and I will end my day knowing, I did all I could.
Thank you for coming back and I hope you come again tomorrow.
